What’s Your Song Today?

I’ve a habit of relating all the situations in my life with different songs I get to hear, both English and Hindi. Its like whenever I am in a particular situation, a song pops up in my head. And then I listen to that particular song for many days, till I get bored of it. So this is all gonna be about songs and situations.

I had a friend, lets call her Jane, so she had a guy friend name Ron who was head over heels in love with her, but she never reciprocated his feelings. For her he was always a friend. Then she met a guy, Alex, and she fell in love with him. So one day when, me, Jayne and Ron were at the canteen, Alex came there and that exact moment when she smiled seeing him, one look at Ron’s face and this song started playing in my mind,

“Kaise bataayein, kyun tujhko chahe, yaara bataa na paaye.
Baatein dilo ki, dekho jo baaki, aankhein tujhe samjhaye.
Tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na .. tu jaane na
Milke bhi, hum na mile, tum se na jaane kyun. meelon ke, hai faasle, tum se na jaane kyun. anjaane, hai silsile, tum se na jaane kyun. sapne hai, palkon tale, tum se na jaane kyun…”

And whenever I listen to this song, I can’t help but think of that day in the canteen, the triangular love story of my friends.

Moving on, when I was just friends with A, he sent me a song one day; I mean he mailed me this song. (We had a habit of mailing songs to each other, sometimes songs said few things better than words could.)

“If you’re not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through and I hope,

You are the one I share my life with..”

It touched me. He was a guy of few words, but this song said it all. It was time for me to accept that our relationship is just not friendship anymore.

Then we fell in love, and the cute and lovely days of my life began. There were songs all around me. I was actually listening to every romantic song ever sung, and every song seemed like my own story.

“Khwaabon bina, nigahen meri jee rahin thi
Koi nahin tha yeh akeli meri thi zindagi
Khamosh tha honthon pe baatein nahin thi
Koi nahin tha yeh akeli meri thi zindagi

Tum mile toh mil gaya yeh jahaan
Tum mile toh har pal hai naya
Tum mile toh sabse hai… faasla
Tum mile toh jaadu chaa gaya
Tum mile toh jeena aa gaya
Tum mile toh maine paaya… hai khuda”

Then started the fights, the heart break, possessiveness, tears, etc etc and I started listening to Taylor Swift. Now this girl has a talent to write down the things going through the mind of a young girl who is having a break up. It was like she’s stealing my words, she was singing the things I wanted to say. But those days we fought only for a day, he would send me a song, some cute texts and we would be back together. He sent me this song one day, and I cried listening to it. It’s a song from the Indian band KAASH.

“Na ho ab udaas tu
Na kr ankhe num
In sooni sooni raaton mein
Ayenge tujhse milne hum
In sooni sooni raaton mein
In pyaari pyaari baaton mein
Main laut aaunga
Un dheemi dheemi shaamon mein
Kiye the hum ne waadey jo
Un saarey kasme waadon
Ko main mar ke bhi nibhaunga“

When I am depressed, I listen to the songs from the movie Udaan, all its songs are inspiring. There’s one song by Kelly Clarkson, which is actually my favorite when it comes to inspiration.

“I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes til’ I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway..”

And why am I writing this post today? Because I just mailed him  my last song. I don’t think I’ve any hopes left for our relationship to get any better. I’ve accepted it to be the end. I don’t want to write about the details right now. Though the song in my mind, this whole day was,

“Kahani mohabat ke hai muktasar,
Gaya dil say phir woh na aya idhar,
Kabhi koi tha meri rahon ka ek humsafar,
Kar gaya dil ka woh soon nagar,
Koi rasta na koi dagar,
Usay dhondon kahan, usay paon kahan,
Aaj main hoon yahan, woh kahan?”

I actually don’t like music i guess, it’s the lyrics which attracts me to a song. Rightfully, I am the girl who love words.

Do you relate songs with your life too? What’s your song for today? Do share it here with me.

P.S.  This is for that guy who’ll ever propose me ( I’ll find someone someday ,right?), sing this song for me and I’ll never say no.

“Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She’s so beautiful, and I tell her every day
Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won’t believe me
And it’s so, it’s so, sad to think that she don’t see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say
When I see your face, there’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you’re amazing, just the way you are”

P.P.S. I desperately wanted to write something. I am tired of trying to be strong and determined.