There are times in my life when I want someone to talk to. You know like a real talk. Not a friend, not my boyfriend, not my mom, not anyone I know but someone else. I think I have been looking for this someone else for a long time. Ever since I finished college, when I felt clueless about my life, when I didn’t know what next, there was someone I was looking for. I can’t talk to people I know because they love me, they would never tell me what’s wrong with me, a certain subjectivity would always accompany their “talks” and I don’t want that.
Though my mother is my confidant, I can’t afford to worry her with my weird thoughts. My parents, they are simple people, the only thing they can do using a phone is a call (which originally a phone was supposed to do). They don’t understand Facebook, Instagram or Snapchat. They don’t get YOLO or FOMO. They don’t get my quarter life crisis. At my age my mother has had several miscarriages and finally a baby. She had no time or thoughts to deal with an identity crisis. So, they do what they think is right- which is to support me in whatever I wish to do. And I can’t ask them for more.
As for my boyfriend, he doesn’t really talk. You know like the real talk. He’s an introvert and it’s hard for him to express himself. He has a completely different personality than me. I mean we have a very similar lifestyle and same kind of dreams but we are different people. He’s a fulfilled, happy person while I am an insatiable wandering soul. He is calm like the sea while I am violent like a cyclone. He doesn’t get my obsession with finding my mojo or my streak of competitiveness. He does try but the talks with him are mostly monologues while all I want is a dialogue.
Kuch hum kahen, kuch wo sunayen,
Kuch baton se kuch or baat ban jayen…
So, there was a time in my life when I used to strike up conversations with strangers while travelling…in trains, in buses, while waiting at the airports. I liked that. Two people who don’t know each other discussing everything under the sun. I liked the notion of talking and never having to see each other again. It was like I left a part of my story with someone I would never meet again. And this was one of the reason I started this blog, to talk. Even here, I don’t get “dialogues” (except for a few comments) but whenever I write, I imagine someone is sitting in front of me, listening to everything I say. And you may find it hard to believe but by the end of a post, I feel relieved. In my mind I have had a conversation with myself. So when I don’t get that someone I want to talk to, I write.
I write to talk.
Why do you write?
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writing is the art of expressing the emotions which can’t be uttered orally , anyway its a weapon of a frantic brain which fires the thoughts of bullets….
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True.. Most of the things I write here are thoughts I can’t express in any other way.
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Well keep experience and explore the creative head….
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Just blurb it out here, i am reading 🙂
You are a different person (we all are actually), but your bf should have gotten used to by now…which is for him to speak more! Normally one can’t become shy, but one can become an extrovert.
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He has improved but not like he’s gonna have deep philosophical conversations with me. His hmm and achcha have changed into Haan and achcha thik hai but that’s the most I can get out of him.
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i write to express my feelings and views.
Loved reading ur post.
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Thank you.. Would surely hop on to your blog to read your views.. 🙂
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My wife has a similar complaint about me as you have about your boy friend 🙂
With regard to why I write, I have spoken (written ?) about it in a recent post on my blog.
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Atleast you write… There’s a way to express yourself.. I am not that lucky.. And yes I read your post.. 🙂
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I have this hidden AGENDA .. I love the torture readers go through reading my posts 🙂 🙂 thats why i write
MUUU HA HA HA HA HA HA
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Hahaha… You and your funny comments.. :p some people like to be tortured.. So keep writing.
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You said it all for me.
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Feels Great to be on your Blog through Twitter after such a long time and I am Happy to see you still pursuing writing. Take Care.
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Most of all, to find out more about me, I guess 🙂
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Our souls need to be fed and we are starving. We write to feed our souls
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Outstanding expressions !!!
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I write because I can’t help it. Have to write otherwise I start feeling jittery and even unhappy… Love your reason for writing, to communicate. Just beautiful, writing is a form of communication that can spread across centuries and make some unknown person feel happy upon reading…
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Hi… Thanks for being here on my blog.. I have been away from blogging for a really long time.. sorry for the late reply.
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Couldn’t be anymore accurate than this!!!
Lovely description…😊
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Thank you for the comment and for so many likes on my blog. I really appreciate you taking out the time to check out my blog. 🙂
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You’re welcome…
Well tbh your blog is wonderful and I couldn’t resist reading the stuff so checked them out as much as possible in a single go…😄
Maybe you could check out my blog as well and leave your valuable reviews suggestions or criticism 😊
I’d appreciate it
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Thank you again. 🙂 and I am off to your blog now. 🙂
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Welcome to my World…
Feel free to leave any or all kinds of suggestions, reviews or criticism…😁😁
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I write because I have a riot of thoughts in my head! Which you probably know all too well from the tangents I go on while describing my treks but it’s just the way it is 🙂
I have never got round to writing completely philosophical posts yet. Maybe some day in the future, I’ll.
P.S Love the quote! 🙂
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Oh, you should write such posts. You are a great writer and I would love reading your philosophy! 🙂
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Thank you so much! I probably never have had more motivation to pen down one 🙂
And whenever I do, I’ll come back here and paste the link! 🙂
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That would be great. I look forward to read your thoughts. 🙂
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Back here as promised! I have created another (non-anonymous) blog where I am penning posts about things that I couldn’t on my primary blog but I haven’t yet got round to writing philosophical posts yet. I’ll very soon though 🙂
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Link please?
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Very soon! Let me just come out with a couple of more posts on that blog 😀
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